TwIsTeD Reflections

I dont rant. I just dont, because it is pointless. So why isit, these few days, Ive been ranting? Ive been feeling a weird sense of melancholy lately. I was told it is not depression, since depressed people dont make jokes and laugh at other people.

Then, it occured to me. I've been feeling like this because of everything that is happening around me. Normally, bad news dont affect me much, I can pretty much take things in stride. But, now that i think about it (normally, I avoid thinking negatively, so Im kinda oblivious) there has been an awful lot of shit happening, not to me, but to the people around me, and in turn (I suspect) affects me.

My girlfriend got her face scarred by New York Skin Solutions, for example. (If you are reading this, DO NOT GO THERE!!). Sorry, dear, if you are reading this, I couldn't hold it in. She paid a huge undisclosed sum of money to get her face treated, only to ger pimples forcefully popped. Not to mention her momentous decision to finally take a stand to her parents. Then there is the goddamn exams, which all my dearest university friends, muggers and non-muggers alike, are fretting over, even getting depressed over. There is Shoe, who has officially turned into a zombie now that her boyfriend, who doesnt seem to like me, went back to his hometown for 4 weeks. There is my beloved cousin, who recently broke up with the girlfriend, and has to have me come over for 2 nights so depression wont set in. And of course there is my exams and the fact that I purposely missed a major exam for the first time in my freakin' life.

Other than that, everything is just dandy. I sure hope my brothers (or 1 cock and 1 sister, for those who did my facebook quiz) are doing fine

The funny thing is that I didnt realise the cumulative effect on all these events on me only now. This strange feeling of sadness that is not sadness, loneliness that is not loneliness, frustruation that is just not. I could only call it... melancholy. This is huge for a person who seldom, if ever, get depressed. I dont even know what depression is supposed to feel like.

I enjoy helping people. Well, people close to me specifically. I help all the same i.e. with my utmost best. And perhaps, this is why I'm absorbing in this form of emotional stress, because of my ability to help take burdens off my friends onto my seemingly invincible back. Only that it is not invincible, and cracks are starting to show. Small cracks mind you, nothing major, no emo-ness yet. But cracks nontheless.

Well, while I am at it, I my and as well create a constructive argument. Why do people rank friendships? Does a person who knows you longest neccessarily know you best? If you confess everything to a psychologist who has only just had you as a client, ill bet the psychologist knows more about you than your best friend for years. What does best friend even mean? Most... love? alikeness? time together? kinship?

I have already come to an understanding that no one knows me for who I am. I have come to that understanding for years already in fact. Nope, Im not moping like some idiot, I'm just speaking fact. And I don't blame anyone for that fact, for I think I don't even know myself. So no one knows me inside out, not even my girlfriend. I think the person closest to that kind of kinship, is probably Shoe, and I havent even met her properly yet.

But that doesn't mean I love her. So, the link between friendship and romantic love, to me, is non-existent. I dont agree with the people that say that there can't be platonic love between a girl and a guy. Such a view is narrow-minded, in my opinion, and discounts the possibility of a beautiful platonic friendship without the introduction of romance.

So why is it that we get so caught up getting jealous over our partners friends? They have nothing to do with your relationship. Why do friends get jealous over another friend's partner? Is your friend not allowed to feel happiness in romance while you are there?

I put all my friends on the same plate, the same platform. None have priority over the other, as long as they have gained my trust. If all came to me with problems, so help me god, I will help every one of them together. Melancholy be damned.

This ad is priceless. Smart that nike chose to use the Kobe vs Lebron dynamic to create this funny muppet ad. Love the seen-it-all veteran feel of Kobe and the hyped-up new-guy-in-the-block view in Lebron. You know what will be a good ad? Have Kobe and Lebron go one-on-one, and pay the winner a few more thousand dollars. Priceless to say the least. Kobe will kick Lebron's ass.

In honour of the first nba game that I've ever watched...

Seen my previous post of the 10 Tips On How To Maintain A Relationship?

Some things to note. I shall not update for a while, with TwIsTeD Reflections or with The 13, as I prepare for the #$%^ exams.