TwIsTeD Reflections

So far, if you have seen the previous posts I hav written, you would notice certain headings connected to each post. Such as TwIsTeR Insights, where i would discuss the way the world or society works from the bottom of the well as seen by a frog. The said frog also comes up with posts such as TwIsTeR's Lakers, a more light-hearted reading on basketball.

Now, this type of blog post, which i have called TwIsTeR Truths was meant to be a revelation of how I am, how i operate, kinda lik a weird wenjie expose. therefore, I. am. VERY. hesitant about this idea. For fear of ridicule, for fear of letting people see through the masks, for fear of just muttering incomprehensible bits and boring everyone out.

Ridicule, you say? Yes, ridicule. Why? Because I have a belief that I m unique as a human being (or try to be, at the very least) and therefore grossly misunderstood by even the closest of friends. I do not mind being misunderstood, therefore the hesitation of this post, but it would be... interesting.

I am born on 26th May, 1986. Which, according to the astrology zodiac(ang moh version), I am a Gemini. No big deal to some, including myself. Im not superstitious, so zodiac signs are just a passing interest to me. And i do not agree to certain parts too.(i.e Gemini are supposed to be intelligent. Yah, many of you are laffing now)

Yet i found something within the Gemini's essence to be true in describing me. The paradox of duality. I find myself a strange fusion of 2 extremes in terms of personality.

My temper, is a good example as what i mean. Many think im a good tempered, shui bian kinda fella. And they are absolutely right. Until they talk to my brothers or my girlfriend, to whom, sadly so, I have a shorter fuse. And yet, even she doesnt noe the full extent of my anger yet. Not even I do, since i have never let that monster out of the cage, but i know it is terrifying.

Or perhaps the question of whether im extroverted or introverted, as debbie has asked me b4. I can boisterously loud, shouting and laughing like nobody's business. I have, on numerous occasions opened my mouth when nobody else has dared to. On the other hand, i have a meek personality, especially around girls(topic for another time). Sometimes i clamp up with a group of friends, preferring to fade in the background. And i also enjoy being left alone to my own devices.

The duality takes its form in many other areas that make up a personality. Cold logic vs thoughtless art, heart vs head, order vs chaos, stingy vs generous, kindness vs cruelty, etc... To explain each duality would take a post as long as a thesis. Yet, it is present and existing in me. Which why some of you receive mixed signals, despite my careful treading of concealing this.

Duality exists perhaps in every person, yet I feel that, as a fact, it exists in a larger scale than most.

There, my first post of TwiStEr Truths, and hopefully not my last. Shit, i hope i don't regret this.